Baby Loss // Goodbye our Perfect Ebben Arthur

Ebben’s Story is now live for anyone who would like to read it

Although I have shared this news on our social media, and I have been posting on there about how I am currently processing what has happened to us over the last few weeks, I have yet to post anything on the blog. 

So for those of you who don’t follow our social media, our beautiful and perfect baby boy, Ebben Arthur was born sleeping on the 24th June, after his heart stopped during labour. This has been the hardest and most painful experience Jon and myself have ever had to deal with and we are still struggling to come to terms with it.

Today is the day of Ebben’s blessing. Instead of a formal funeral service we have chosen to have a blessing ceremony as we cannot have him christened, which means a lot to me personally. We are honouring his existence and formally giving him his name in front of all our closest friends and family. This is a day I have been dreading for the last few weeks, but also a day that I know we need to happen. The time between his birth and today has been like living in limbo, you honestly don’t know what to do with yourself in this situation. The funeral is the next chapter in this shitty story we are currently living, and we have been simply waiting for it to happen. You don’t feel like you can do anything, start to find your new version of normal until it has been.

So that is where we are today…saying goodbye to our beautiful little Ebben

I’m still unable to talk about everything that happened during his labour but one day I hope I will be strong enough to share Ebben’s story with you all. So if we are a little quiet here on the blog this is why. I still have scheduled posts and some guest posts ready to go out, but is unlikely I will be as active as usual for a little while.